Love with a sociopath is no bed of roses.
It’s not a match made in heaven.
It’s from deepest hell. But: we win…
Love with a sociopath (a narcissist) starts out on a road we think is a mutual path, paved with love, where we’ll walk into our own gorgeous land of harmony and possibility like no other.
A land filled with promise like no other relationship that exists, all and only because: we are with them. This one incredible – are-you-kidding-me – amazing person. And it feels like a fairytale, a Disney princess, the Duke of Hastings, Bridgerton come alive and turned real.
When in love with a sociopath we feel that together we’re infinitely more than either of us could be apart. There’s sunshine, birds singing, rainbows – but no rain – pots of gold, blue skies, and hearts dancing and flitting around our heads like butterflies. They feel differently… they’re after your high-octane-goodness.
We Do the Things Normal People Do In Love
When we’re in love with a sociopath, we’re all in. Our new address is cloud nine.
Then naturally, as any normal person in a relationship, we relationship-build. We undertake to give, make, bake, create, fix, and take leaps of faith, and climb mountains to make things happen for us. This is normal and what one does in real relationships.
There is resolution and full restoration.
What is recovery for you?
Hormones Signal Love
Since we believe and feel it’s real, our body is doing the things it does when real relationships happen. There’s a chemical mix of “love cocktail” that swooshes through us and it’s muddled well with the venom of their coercive control as it is injected into our veins and bones by their very presence and so, we’re locked in.
Hormones and signals that we’re in love. This naturally leads us to do and feel things that only happen when one is bonding and building a relationship.
There’s something extra going on here though…the infusion of coercive control has us seeing this as life-like-in-a-movie. Their invisible sway of influence has us trying harder. And, ultimately, staying longer feeling desperate that we can’t lose them. – There’s nothing inherently wrong with us. We’re super-de-duper normal. really, no matter your past, no matter your parents or childhood. What we are is ensnared by – that is, feeling that we’re in love with a sociopath.
All We Need to Fall In Love
It’s easy-peasy to fall in love. Really our bodies are made for it. The Amazing Brain explains. To find a complete stranger. Reveal to each other intimate details about your lives for half an hour. Then, stare deeply into each other’s eyes without talking for four minutes.
We’re not stupid. We’re being what we are: human. A human in love. Life and love with a sociopath are far from normal. We just don’t know who’s standing next to us yet.
Love with a Sociopath is a Life of Two Parallel Realities
Without realizing it, we’re not making a magnificent masterpiece of a life on a bicycle built for two. We’re digging a gnarled, dark, deep, tangled hole into the center of hell, where we’re headed all by ourselves, because the sociopath we love knows there’s no relationship.
Once we see enough, cry enough, try enough, we do end it. Sometimes they end it before we can, because a sociopath always, always knows the end is coming.
If we’re lucky, we see a glimpse of this just as the sociopath trips off into his own disgusting future with all our things on his back in a rotting knapsack we mistook for his beautiful soul.
All Normal Humans Are Emotional: There’s Nothing Wrong with Us
If we look at what went on with our emotional human brain we’ll only continue to suffer. We will never heal. Ever.
There are certain beliefs that destroy us as festering wounds after the sociopath leaves. If we’re misinformed about how amazing humans are, how normal we are, and what a sociopath really is, and what that means, we may never, ever recover. Ever. — We can heal.
Here’s what will ruin us after it’s over:
Telling ourselves, or being told by others and believing:
- We’re codependent, weak
- Have low self-esteem
- It’s our fault, we’re crazy
- And stupid, and addicted to the narcissist
- Blame lies with us, because we ignored red flags
- There’s that “work” we need to do on ourselves
- We’ve been naive, got hooked because we went through abuse as kids
And There’s More Malarkey We Hear About Our Love with a Sociopath
- You’ve likely heard it…
- Always, we pick the wrong guy or gal to fall in love with
- Have a pattern of abusive relationships
- Always get it wrong
- We fell for it because we’re older or because our dog just died, or we’re needy
- Not wanting to be alone made it happen
- It happened because we wanted marriage and kids
- Loving a sociopath happened because they made us feel safe
- We fell for it because we don’t have enough money
- Our insecurity led us to think they could help us do something or be something
- We were blind, and in denial, our friends told us but we didn’t listen
- And most of all, don’t we know if something’s too good to be true… it isn’t real
- None of these is true. And there are very good things that are very true
How To Heal After Loving a Sociopath
There are no words to describe the feel of the life-shattering shock of realizing all was a lie. Loving a sociopath leaves us with post-trauma and the need for self-compassion in order to heal truly and completely.
It takes support and encouragement and someone who can listen without judging. someone who knows what we’ve been through. It takes accurate and true information and understanding of what a sociopath is – and what we are as gorgeous, loving humane, human beings.
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So much “YES!” to this. My ex once told me, very early on, “You know this feeling is just a phase, right? It’s going to end. I intend to prolong it as long as I can, but it’s going to end.” I thought he was talking about the normal ending of the “honeymoon” phase of a normal relationship. I know now that he was controlling the phases all along, and that he was talking about the inevitable transition for him from idealization to devaluation.
Yep. — Sociopaths always say a few mind-bending true things about themselves that we interpret through our own limbic-humane-brain. – Those odd things do stick with us though – it’s part of why the whole thing falls apart, why we see through them. – He wasn’t referring to “controlling phases …and inevitable transition for him from idealization to devaluation.” — He was talking about sociopaths are just what sociopaths are. They can’t sustain anything because they can only fake it for so long, they “fail and bail” because we see through them. And they all know this – They know the end comes because they can’t sustain pretending, and they are so strange they can’t hide it. We also don’t stand for the mean, the taking, the using long term – so, yah, it’s always over and they always have new prey while with us and before us and after us – many, many people they cycle through simultaneously – Newer or more promising targets need more attention and have fresh things to “give.” – So, yah, the nutters move on. — And they don’t “devalue” us because they never valued us – the facade simply wears out – they can’t keep it up out of lack of ability to pretend long term and out of boredom. — And out of something we have in common with sociopaths: no living being can be something they aren’t. Read here: Sociopaths Cannot Devalue Us https://www.truelovescam.com/sociopaths-cannot-devalue-us/